[{"content":"I\u0026rsquo;m Anas, a site reliability and software engineer based in Tunisia, trading funded prop firm accounts on the side. I have a degree in software engineering, self-educated in markets and psychology. I am passionate about spending half of my life making money and spending the other half giving it away.\n","date":"20 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/","section":"Anas B.","summary":"","title":"Anas B.","type":"page"},{"content":"Notes on personal development, life, business, psychology, software engineering, and trading.\nDifferent subjects, same questions: how to think clearly under pressure, how to build a process you\u0026rsquo;ll actually follow, and how to tell real progress from noise.\n","date":"20 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"Posts","type":"posts"},{"content":"","date":"20 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/systems/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Systems","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"20 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Tags","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"20 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/trading/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Trading","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"20 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/vwap/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Vwap","type":"tags"},{"content":"I traded ICT concepts for about three years. Inversion fair value gaps, change in state of delivery, stop hunts, SMT divergence, m1 and m3 and m5 alignment. I did not abandon them because someone argued me out of it. I abandoned them because my own journal argued me out of it, and it took about nine months of reading my own notes before I listened.\nThe notes were the evidence # I log every trade. That turned out to be the thing that killed the method, because the notes stopped being about the market and started being about the rules.\nDate What I wrote 26 Nov 2025 hesitation, waiting for m3 cisd is useless, m1 cisd with m3 ifvg 27 Nov 2025 never wait for m3 cisd. m1 stop hunt and cisd with m3 ifvg entry are enough 3 Dec 2025 did not wait for a stop hunt or m3 ifvg proper close 16 Dec 2025 small ifvg? against bias? idk 13 Jan 2026 50/50 area where both condition for longs and shorts are present 10 Feb 2026 plateform is shit first its fake confirmation Read those in order. In November I am refining the rules. Three weeks later I am contradicting the refinement. By December I am asking myself a question I cannot answer. By January the setup gives a long and a short signal in the same place. By February I am blaming the broker.\nThat is not a trader improving. That is a framework failing and a person patching it.\nWhy it fails the way it does # ICT concepts are not wrong as descriptions. Price does sweep liquidity. Gaps do get filled. The problem is that they are descriptive, not decidable.\nA fair value gap is obvious afterwards. In the moment there are four candidate gaps on three timeframes, and the rule for which one counts is your own judgement. So every losing trade has an explanation available: wrong gap, wrong timeframe, did not wait for the close. The method can never be falsified, only re-specified. That is why my notes multiply rules instead of removing them.\nA system you cannot be wrong about is a system you cannot improve.\nWhat replaced it # VWAP fades. One instrument, one setup, one target.\nPrice leaves the mean, stays away long enough to prove it was not noise, then comes back. I take the come-back.\nThe long # Bars 5 to 14 sit below the lower band. That is the part that matters. Bar 15 is the first M5 candle to close back above it, and that close is the entry. Stop goes under the extreme at 97.5. Target is one R, which the fade reaches before it gets anywhere near VWAP.\nThe short # Same thing upside down. Price pushes above the upper band, holds above it, then an M5 candle closes back below.\nThe rule that does the work # It is not a reversal trade. I am not calling a top or a bottom.\nPrice has to break the band, stay outside it, and then revert. The staying is the whole filter. A wick through the band and an immediate snap back is not acceptance, it is noise, and it is the trade that looks most like the setup while being nothing like it.\ngraph TD A[Price reaches the band] --\u003e B{Did it close outside?} B -- no, only a wick --\u003e X[No trade] B -- yes --\u003e C{Did it stay outsidefor several candles?} C -- no, snapped straight back --\u003e X C -- yes, acceptance --\u003e D{M5 candle closesback inside the band?} D -- no --\u003e E[Wait] E --\u003e D D -- yes --\u003e F[Enter on that closestop beyond the extremetarget 1R] Qualifies Does not Contact with band closes outside it wick only Time outside several candles, held one candle, snapped back Approach extended away, returning already at the mean Trigger M5 close back inside trading the wick in real time Target 1R held for the full move to VWAP Why this is better, and it is not the win rate # The win rate is not obviously higher. The difference is that I can be wrong about it.\nEvery term in the setup is a number a computer could check. Did the candle close outside the band, yes or no. Did it stay out for N candles, yes or no. Did an M5 candle close back inside, yes or no. There is no timeframe to argue with afterwards and no fourth gap I should have used instead.\nThat means a losing month is information rather than an excuse. If the edge stops working I will see it in the data, because the data is answering the same question every time. Under ICT I could never tell the difference between a bad month and a misapplication, so I always concluded misapplication, so I always added a rule.\nThree years to learn that the value of a system is not how well it describes the market. It is whether it can tell you that you are wrong.\n","date":"20 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/22-what-it-cost-to-stop-trading-ict/","section":"Posts","summary":"Three years of concepts, and the simpler thing that replaced them.","title":"What It Cost to Stop Trading ICT","type":"posts"},{"content":"","date":"17 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/cli/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Cli","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"17 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/go/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Go","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"17 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/music/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Music","type":"tags"},{"content":"Things I built because I wanted them to exist. Mostly trading tooling, Kubernetes plumbing, and small utilities that replace something bloated with something that does one job.\nNearly all of it is open source - the source link is at the bottom of each.\n","date":"17 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/projects/","section":"Projects","summary":"","title":"Projects","type":"projects"},{"content":"A YouTube Music client that lives in the terminal. Search, download audio, manage a play queue, bookmark favourites, and play - all from the keyboard.\nOpen the live version Why # Every music client wants to be a browser tab. If the rest of my work happens in a terminal, the music should too.\nStack # Written in Go, MIT licensed. The most-starred thing I\u0026rsquo;ve published.\nGet it # curl -fsSL https://raw.githubusercontent.com/anas1412/ytmgo/main/install.sh | bash Detects your system: on Arch it installs ytmgo-bin via paru or yay, elsewhere it pulls the static binary and its deps. Nothing compiles unless you ask. From source instead:\ngo build -o ytmgo . \u0026amp;\u0026amp; ./ytmgo Tab focuses search, Enter queues a result, ↑↓/jk move.\nanas1412/ytmgo YT Music from Terminal - written in GO Go 16 1 ","date":"17 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/projects/ytmgo/","section":"Projects","summary":"A terminal YouTube Music client in Go - search, queue, bookmark and play without leaving the keyboard.","title":"ytmgo","type":"projects"},{"content":"","date":"16 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/mql5/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Mql5","type":"tags"},{"content":"An opening-range breakout expert advisor where every parameter is an input - any session, any range length, any signal timeframe, any symbol. Daylight saving is handled properly, which is where most session-based strategies quietly break.\nOpen the live version Why # Backtests that can\u0026rsquo;t be reproduced aren\u0026rsquo;t research, they\u0026rsquo;re anecdotes. This ships the harness alongside the EA so a result can be re-run.\npython3 orb.py compile # build the EA Stack # MQL5 for the EA, Python for the harness. Runs on Windows and on Linux under Wine.\nGet it # Copy mql5/ into your terminal\u0026rsquo;s data folder (File → Open Data Folder), compile, and attach to an XAUUSD M1 chart. The panel starts off.\nFrom the repo Goes to mql5/ORB.mq5 MQL5/Experts/ mql5/CheckBrokerOffset.mq5 MQL5/Scripts/ mql5/TimeZones.mqh MQL5/Include/ mql5/Panel.mqh MQL5/Include/ python3 orb.py compile # or F7 in MetaEditor Releases ship source, not a compiled .ex5.\nanas1412/orb-mt5 Configurable opening-range breakout EA for MetaTrader 5, with a reproducible research harness. Every parameter is an input; runs on Windows and Linux/Wine. HTML 5 1 ","date":"16 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/projects/orb-mt5/","section":"Projects","summary":"A configurable opening-range breakout EA for MT5, with a reproducible research harness behind it.","title":"ORB for MetaTrader 5","type":"projects"},{"content":"","date":"16 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/python/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Python","type":"tags"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 1 GOLD long L -1.09 -$163 view i risked 3% and even so its a loss 2 GOLD long L -1.31 -$65 view 7 GOLD long L -1.04 -$52 view 16 GOLD long L -1.02 -$51 view 1 Sep · GOLD · long · L · -1.09R # i risked 3% and even so its a loss\n2 Sep · GOLD · long · L · -1.31R # 7 Sep · GOLD · long · L · -1.04R # 16 Sep · GOLD · long · L · -1.02R # ","date":"16 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2026-09/","section":"Trading","summary":"4 trades logged in September 2026.","title":"September 2026","type":"trading"},{"content":"Every trade, win or lose, with the chart I took it from. 306 logged across 22 months, newest first. Last synced 20 September 2026.\n","date":"16 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/","section":"Trading","summary":"","title":"Trading","type":"trading"},{"content":"Tokyo Night across the whole desktop - Plasma 6 on Wayland, Kitty, Fish, Kvantum.\nManaged with GNU Stow so each config is a symlink farm rather than a pile of copies. Same palette as this site.\nGet it # sudo pacman -S stow git clone https://github.com/anas1412/dotfiles ~/dotfiles cd ~/dotfiles ./install.sh Or just some of it: ./install.sh fish kitty. Stow refuses rather than overwriting an existing config - move the old one aside and re-run.\nanas1412/dotfiles Tokyo Night rice for Arch (CachyOS) + KDE Plasma 6 on Wayland — managed with GNU Stow Shell 3 0 ","date":"15 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/projects/dotfiles/","section":"Projects","summary":"Tokyo Night on Arch (CachyOS) with KDE Plasma 6 on Wayland, managed with GNU Stow.","title":"dotfiles","type":"projects"},{"content":"","date":"15 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/linux/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Linux","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"15 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/ricing/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Ricing","type":"tags"},{"content":"Removes the parts of Brave nobody asked for: crypto wallet popups, VPN promotions, rewards notifications, AI chat suggestions.\nWhy # A browser that advertises to you is adware with good PR.\nGet it # git clone https://github.com/anas1412/fast-brave-debloater cd fast-brave-debloater chmod +x brave_debloat.sh sudo ./brave_debloat.sh anas1412/fast-brave-debloater A bash script that enables you to remove annoying bloat and increase Brave performance. Shell 8 5 ","date":"10 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/projects/fast-brave-debloater/","section":"Projects","summary":"A bash script that strips Brave of crypto wallets, VPN promos, rewards and AI suggestions.","title":"fast-brave-debloater","type":"projects"},{"content":"","date":"10 September 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/shell/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Shell","type":"tags"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 3 GOLD long L -0.52 -$52 view wrong risk + did not reach 1RR 4 GOLD long L -0.99 -$49 view 5 GOLD long W +1.12 $56 view SL is in a bad place 7 GOLD short L -1.02 -$51 view m5/15 closed but multiple fvgs on m1/m3 10 GOLD short L -1.02 -$102 view becareful of NH and NL and becareful of JPY gap at 3 11 GOLD long W +0.98 $98 view 12 GOLD long W +1.01 $101 view 13 GOLD long missed +0.00 $0 view 14 GOLD short W +1.27 $127 view 17 GOLD long W +1.83 $183 view 18 GOLD long L -0.64 -$64 view 19 GOLD long L -1.06 -$106 view 20 GOLD long L -1.08 -$108 view 21 GOLD short BE +0.03 $3 view supposedly losing trade 26 GOLD short W +2.07 $207 view never move to BE 27 GOLD short L -1.02 -$102 view 31 GOLD long L -1.04 -$104 view 3 Aug · GOLD · long · L · -0.52R # wrong risk + did not reach 1RR\n4 Aug · GOLD · long · L · -0.99R # 5 Aug · GOLD · long · W · +1.12R # SL is in a bad place\n7 Aug · GOLD · short · L · -1.02R # m5/15 closed but multiple fvgs on m1/m3\n10 Aug · GOLD · short · L · -1.02R # becareful of NH and NL and becareful of JPY gap at 3\n11 Aug · GOLD · long · W · +0.98R # 12 Aug · GOLD · long · W · +1.01R # 13 Aug · GOLD · long · missed · +0.00R # 14 Aug · GOLD · short · W · +1.27R # 17 Aug · GOLD · long · W · +1.83R # 18 Aug · GOLD · long · L · -0.64R # 19 Aug · GOLD · long · L · -1.06R # 20 Aug · GOLD · long · L · -1.08R # 21 Aug · GOLD · short · BE · +0.03R # supposedly losing trade\n26 Aug · GOLD · short · W · +2.07R # never move to BE\n27 Aug · GOLD · short · L · -1.02R # 31 Aug · GOLD · long · L · -1.04R # ","date":"31 August 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2026-08/","section":"Trading","summary":"17 trades logged in August 2026.","title":"August 2026","type":"trading"},{"content":"","date":"15 August 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/envoy/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Envoy","type":"tags"},{"content":"A reference stack where one gateway does everything - L7 path routing, L4 raw TCP proxying for Postgres, per-route basic auth, and native Prometheus metrics into Grafana.\nThe React + NestJS + Postgres app exists only to generate real traffic worth routing and watching.\nStack # Deployed to Kubernetes with Kustomize on k3d.\nGet it # One command builds the images, creates the k3d cluster, applies the manifests and waits for readiness:\n./scripts/k3d-up.sh # http://localhost:30080/ ./scripts/k3d-down.sh # tears everything back down anas1412/envoy-fullstack-k8s Envoy as the single ingress: L7 path routing, L4 Postgres proxying, per-route basic auth, native Prometheus metrics -\u0026gt; Grafana. React + NestJS + Postgres on k3d via Kustomize. TypeScript 0 0 ","date":"15 August 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/projects/envoy-fullstack-k8s/","section":"Projects","summary":"Envoy as the single ingress: L7 routing, L4 Postgres proxying, per-route auth and Prometheus metrics through one gateway.","title":"Envoy Full-Stack Reference","type":"projects"},{"content":"","date":"15 August 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/kubernetes/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Kubernetes","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"15 August 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/observability/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Observability","type":"tags"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 1 GOLD short L -0.98 -$98 view m15 close and wicks 2 GOLD long W +1.09 $109 view 3 GOLD long W +1.43 $143 view 8 GOLD long L -0.50 -$50 view i watched m15 fvg got taken 9 GOLD long BE +0.00 $0 view m5 Nested Low \u0026hellip;. really\u0026hellip;.! closed BE bc i broke rules 9 GOLD short L -1.07 -$107 view after 13h no trade not a good idea TBH 10 GOLD long W +1.17 $117 view price so close to NL but did not sweep it all 14 GOLD short W +1.03 $103 view 16 GOLD short BE -0.04 -$4 view I got out bc price reactde from opposite m30 FVG 17 GOLD long L -1.00 -$100 view 20 GOLD long W +1.04 $104 view 21 GOLD long W +0.98 $98 view 23 GOLD long W +0.86 $86 view 28 GOLD short BE +0.05 $2 view what a trade\u0026hellip;. managed the trade perfectly 30 GOLD short L -1.06 -$53 view 31 GOLD long L -0.53 -$27 view 1 Jul · GOLD · short · L · -0.98R # m15 close and wicks\n2 Jul · GOLD · long · W · +1.09R # 3 Jul · GOLD · long · W · +1.43R # 8 Jul · GOLD · long · L · -0.50R # i watched m15 fvg got taken\n9 Jul · GOLD · long · BE · +0.00R # m5 Nested Low \u0026hellip;. really\u0026hellip;.! closed BE bc i broke rules\n9 Jul · GOLD · short · L · -1.07R # after 13h no trade not a good idea TBH\n10 Jul · GOLD · long · W · +1.17R # price so close to NL but did not sweep it all\n14 Jul · GOLD · short · W · +1.03R # 16 Jul · GOLD · short · BE · -0.04R # I got out bc price reactde from opposite m30 FVG\n17 Jul · GOLD · long · L · -1.00R # 20 Jul · GOLD · long · W · +1.04R # 21 Jul · GOLD · long · W · +0.98R # 23 Jul · GOLD · long · W · +0.86R # 28 Jul · GOLD · short · BE · +0.05R # what a trade\u0026hellip;. managed the trade perfectly\n30 Jul · GOLD · short · L · -1.06R # 31 Jul · GOLD · long · L · -0.53R # ","date":"31 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2026-07/","section":"Trading","summary":"16 trades logged in July 2026.","title":"July 2026","type":"trading"},{"content":"","date":"23 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/ai/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Ai","type":"tags"},{"content":"Four views over one set of data. Ideas exist as physical objects on an infinite canvas, drift through a custom physics engine, snap into kanban columns, align on a time grid, or surface through search.\nOpen the live version Why # Built for non-linear thinkers. Most tools pick one metaphor and force everything into it; the metaphor should be a view, not a cage.\nStack # Local-only. No authentication, no cloud, everything in the browser\u0026rsquo;s IndexedDB. The AI assistant runs on OpenRouter, bring your own key.\nGet it # git clone https://github.com/anas1412/cyberiaspace cd cyberiaspace bun install bun run dev Serves on http://localhost:5173. Or use the hosted build - it\u0026rsquo;s local-only either way, nothing leaves the browser.\nanas1412/cyberiaspace A local visual thinking workspace where the same ideas flow through Spatial, Kanban, Calendar, and Directory views. TypeScript 2 0 ","date":"23 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/projects/cyberiaspace/","section":"Projects","summary":"A local-only thinking workspace where the same ideas flow through spatial, kanban, calendar and directory views.","title":"Cyberia Space","type":"projects"},{"content":"","date":"23 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/product/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Product","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"23 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/typescript/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Typescript","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"17 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/llm/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Llm","type":"tags"},{"content":"Give your tenants API keys that forward to your real LLM providers, without running any state of your own.\nHow it works # You create Channel CRDs holding the real provider keys You create a Group CRD per tenant, listing the channels they may use Tenants create ProxyKey CRDs in their own namespaces, referencing their Group Why # Every LLM gateway I looked at wanted Postgres and Redis to store what Kubernetes already stores. CRDs and Secrets are the database.\nGet it # kubectl create namespace llmproxy-system kubectl apply -f deploy/crds.yaml kubectl apply -f deploy/operator.yaml anas1412/llmproxy-k8s Kubernetes-native LLM proxy — virtual API keys for your tenants. No database, no Redis, just CRDs and Secrets. TypeScript 0 0 ","date":"17 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/projects/llmproxy-k8s/","section":"Projects","summary":"A Kubernetes-native LLM proxy that issues per-tenant API keys using CRDs and Secrets - no database, no Redis.","title":"llmproxy-k8s","type":"projects"},{"content":"","date":"6 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/bun/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Bun","type":"tags"},{"content":"Tickets, git worktrees and pull requests for AI coding sessions, running locally.\nOpen the live version Why # An agent session is a unit of work. Treating it like one - with a ticket, a branch and a PR - makes it reviewable instead of disposable.\nNot affiliated with opencode; built by a user, not the team.\nGet it # curl -fsSL https://raw.githubusercontent.com/anas1412/opencode-pinboard/main/pinboard.sh | bash There\u0026rsquo;s a compiled installer binary on the releases page too.\nanas1412/opencode-pinboard Local ticket-based workspace for opencode — turn AI coding sessions into tickets TypeScript 1 0 ","date":"6 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/projects/opencode-pinboard/","section":"Projects","summary":"A local ticket workspace for opencode - turns AI coding sessions into tickets, worktrees and PRs.","title":"Pinboard","type":"projects"},{"content":"","date":"6 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/react/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"React","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"6 July 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/tooling/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Tooling","type":"tags"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 1 GOLD long W +0.56 $56 view high cortisol ngl 1 GOLD long L -1.05 -$105 view the ifvg was not in the last leg 2 GOLD long W +0.52 $52 view 2 GOLD long L -0.12 -$12 view i gambled also big ass SL 3 GOLD short W +1.02 $102 view idk why am i trading continuation m5 ITH 3 GOLD short W +1.14 $114 view pattern recognition trade 4 GOLD short BE -0.02 -$2 view m1 ifvg and closed breakeven bc fear maybe 4 GOLD short W +0.46 $46 view good trade but that damn $4 4 GOLD short L -0.56 -$56 view Gambling 4 GOLD short L -1.04 -$104 view Gambling 4 GOLD long BE +0.00 $0 view Gambling 4 GOLD long L -1.04 -$104 view Gambling 5 GOLD long W +0.95 $95 view 8 GOLD short W +0.41 $41 view i was afraid a moved SL to 0.5RR and got 0.4RR instead then went full 1RR 9 GOLD long L -1.03 -$103 view valid loss 9 GOLD long L -0.66 -$66 view it did not close, mistake 10 GOLD short BE +0.02 $2 view idk spread became big it should be a win and i move to BE lol 10 GOLD long W +1.09 $109 view data low + m5 ITL 11 GOLD short W +1.28 $128 view m2 ifvg targetting EQL 12 GOLD long W +1.07 $107 view 15 GOLD short L -1.04 -$104 view 16 GOLD short W +1.05 $105 view 17 GOLD short L -1.06 -$106 view place your SL on a high not random 18 GOLD short W +1.11 $111 view 19 GOLD long W +1.10 $110 view 23 GOLD long L -0.61 -$61 view 24 GOLD long L -1.00 -$100 view 25 GOLD long W +2.37 $237 view 26 GOLD short L -0.51 -$51 view m30 FVG refersed from 29 GOLD short L -0.70 -$70 view 29 GOLD short L -0.55 -$55 view 30 GOLD long W +1.08 $108 view 1 Jun · GOLD · long · W · +0.56R # high cortisol ngl\n1 Jun · GOLD · long · L · -1.05R # the ifvg was not in the last leg\n2 Jun · GOLD · long · W · +0.52R # 2 Jun · GOLD · long · L · -0.12R # i gambled also big ass SL\n3 Jun · GOLD · short · W · +1.02R # idk why am i trading continuation m5 ITH\n3 Jun · GOLD · short · W · +1.14R # pattern recognition trade\n4 Jun · GOLD · short · BE · -0.02R # m1 ifvg and closed breakeven bc fear maybe\n4 Jun · GOLD · short · W · +0.46R # good trade but that damn $4\n4 Jun · GOLD · short · L · -0.56R # Gambling\n4 Jun · GOLD · short · L · -1.04R # Gambling\n4 Jun · GOLD · long · BE · +0.00R # Gambling\n4 Jun · GOLD · long · L · -1.04R # Gambling\n5 Jun · GOLD · long · W · +0.95R # 8 Jun · GOLD · short · W · +0.41R # i was afraid a moved SL to 0.5RR and got 0.4RR instead then went full 1RR\n9 Jun · GOLD · long · L · -1.03R # valid loss\n9 Jun · GOLD · long · L · -0.66R # it did not close, mistake\n10 Jun · GOLD · short · BE · +0.02R # idk spread became big it should be a win and i move to BE lol\n10 Jun · GOLD · long · W · +1.09R # data low + m5 ITL\n11 Jun · GOLD · short · W · +1.28R # m2 ifvg targetting EQL\n12 Jun · GOLD · long · W · +1.07R # 15 Jun · GOLD · short · L · -1.04R # 16 Jun · GOLD · short · W · +1.05R # 17 Jun · GOLD · short · L · -1.06R # place your SL on a high not random\n18 Jun · GOLD · short · W · +1.11R # 19 Jun · GOLD · long · W · +1.10R # 23 Jun · GOLD · long · L · -0.61R # 24 Jun · GOLD · long · L · -1.00R # 25 Jun · GOLD · long · W · +2.37R # 26 Jun · GOLD · short · L · -0.51R # m30 FVG refersed from\n29 Jun · GOLD · short · L · -0.70R # 29 Jun · GOLD · short · L · -0.55R # 30 Jun · GOLD · long · W · +1.08R # ","date":"30 June 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2026-06/","section":"Trading","summary":"32 trades logged in June 2026.","title":"June 2026","type":"trading"},{"content":"Copies trades - positions and pending limit/stop orders - from one master account to one or more slave accounts on the FundingPips MatchTrader platform.\nWhy # Passing the same challenge on several accounts means placing the same trade several times, by hand, fast enough that the fills still match. That is exactly the kind of work that should not be manual.\nGet it # Needs Go 1.22+.\ngit clone git@github.com:anas1412/fp-mtr-tradecopier.git cd fp-mtr-tradecopier bash install.sh Fetches dependencies and builds the copier binary.\nStack # Go, against the MatchTrader platform API.\nanas1412/fp-mtr-tradecopier FundingPips Trade Copier for Matchtrader Plateform Go 0 0 ","date":"9 June 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/projects/fp-mtr-tradecopier/","section":"Projects","summary":"Copies positions and pending orders from a master account to any number of slaves on FundingPips MatchTrader.","title":"FundingPips Trade Copier","type":"projects"},{"content":"","date":"9 June 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/propfirms/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Propfirms","type":"tags"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 5 GOLD short L -1.05 -$105 view M30 ITH (asia high) + M15 FVG + M3 ifvg 5 GOLD short W +1.08 $108 view stop hunt after a valid trade w/ M3 ifvg 6 GOLD short BE +0.00 $0 view I moved SL to BE (is it fear? idk) 7 GOLD short W +1.00 $100 view almost fucked it up but gj 8 GOLD short W +1.02 $102 view always hesitatnt use market execution always 12 GOLD long BE +0.02 $2 view CPI in 30 minutes 12 GOLD long L -1.03 -$103 view M15 big candle aka structure is bad 13 GOLD long L -1.08 -$108 view fake ITL + weird how it hit SL 13 GOLD long L -1.04 -$104 view beware of low quality ITL/H 14 GOLD short W +1.09 $109 real ITH on M15/M30/H1 15 GOLD long L -0.63 -$63 view 15 GOLD short L -0.09 -$9 GAMBLING 15 GOLD short L -1.06 -$106 EMOTIONS AND GAMBLING 18 GOLD short W +1.39 $174 view always goes back to BE after a 1RR 20 GOLD short L -1.01 -$127 view the ifvg is not a v-shape, 2nd trade worked 21 GOLD short L -1.09 -$136 view literally no mistake, hit SL then TP\u0026hellip; 26 GOLD short W +1.21 $121 view m2 IFVG 28 GOLD short BE -0.01 -$1 view almost 1RR and closed BE bc of fear (m3 exec should be TP) 28 GOLD short L -0.98 -$123 view which led to this tight SL trade 28 GOLD short L -0.29 -$29 view and this trade should be BE lol 29 GOLD short W +0.57 $57 view starting to get 0.5RR 29 GOLD short W +0.53 $53 view this is insane i love this 5 May · GOLD · short · L · -1.05R # M30 ITH (asia high) + M15 FVG + M3 ifvg\n5 May · GOLD · short · W · +1.08R # stop hunt after a valid trade w/ M3 ifvg\n6 May · GOLD · short · BE · +0.00R # I moved SL to BE (is it fear? idk)\n7 May · GOLD · short · W · +1.00R # almost fucked it up but gj\n8 May · GOLD · short · W · +1.02R # always hesitatnt use market execution always\n12 May · GOLD · long · BE · +0.02R # CPI in 30 minutes\n12 May · GOLD · long · L · -1.03R # M15 big candle aka structure is bad\n13 May · GOLD · long · L · -1.08R # fake ITL + weird how it hit SL\n13 May · GOLD · long · L · -1.04R # beware of low quality ITL/H\n14 May · GOLD · short · W · +1.09R # real ITH on M15/M30/H1\n15 May · GOLD · long · L · -0.63R # 15 May · GOLD · short · L · -0.09R # GAMBLING\n15 May · GOLD · short · L · -1.06R # EMOTIONS AND GAMBLING\n18 May · GOLD · short · W · +1.39R # always goes back to BE after a 1RR\n20 May · GOLD · short · L · -1.01R # the ifvg is not a v-shape, 2nd trade worked\n21 May · GOLD · short · L · -1.09R # literally no mistake, hit SL then TP\u0026hellip;\n26 May · GOLD · short · W · +1.21R # m2 IFVG\n28 May · GOLD · short · BE · -0.01R # almost 1RR and closed BE bc of fear (m3 exec should be TP)\n28 May · GOLD · short · L · -0.98R # which led to this tight SL trade\n28 May · GOLD · short · L · -0.29R # and this trade should be BE lol\n29 May · GOLD · short · W · +0.57R # starting to get 0.5RR\n29 May · GOLD · short · W · +0.53R # this is insane i love this\n","date":"29 May 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2026-05/","section":"Trading","summary":"22 trades logged in May 2026.","title":"May 2026","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 5 GOLD short W +2.05 $205 view 6 GOLD long BE -0.14 -$14 view 10 GOLD short L -1.08 -$108 view 11 GOLD long BE -0.07 -$7 view 12 GOLD short BE +0.02 $2 view 13 GOLD long L -1.08 -$108 view 16 GOLD long L -1.10 -$110 view 17 GOLD short W +2.01 $201 view 18 GOLD long L -1.00 -$100 view 23 GOLD short L -1.10 -$110 view 24 GOLD short BE +0.00 $0 view 5 Mar · GOLD · short · W · +2.05R # 6 Mar · GOLD · long · BE · -0.14R # 10 Mar · GOLD · short · L · -1.08R # 11 Mar · GOLD · long · BE · -0.07R # 12 Mar · GOLD · short · BE · +0.02R # 13 Mar · GOLD · long · L · -1.08R # 16 Mar · GOLD · long · L · -1.10R # 17 Mar · GOLD · short · W · +2.01R # 18 Mar · GOLD · long · L · -1.00R # 23 Mar · GOLD · short · L · -1.10R # 24 Mar · GOLD · short · BE · +0.00R # ","date":"24 March 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2026-03/","section":"Trading","summary":"11 trades logged in March 2026.","title":"March 2026","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 2 GOLD short L -1.03 -$103 view there was an internal ITL 3 GOLD short W +0.96 $96 view 4 GOLD short L -1.03 -$103 view Never execute when price takes internal ITH/ITL after confirmation, thats where u place ur SL at BE or target 5 GOLD short BE +0.09 $9 view i closed a profitable trade. only move SL to BE thats it no more 9 GOLD short L -1.18 -$118 view 10 GOLD short L -1.00 -$100 view [Performance Mistake] plateform is shit first its fake confirmation 10 GOLD short L -0.97 -$97 view [Performance Mistake] then again gave me fake confirmation 11 GOLD long W +1.43 $143 view have fait 12 GOLD short W +1.05 $105 view wait more for ur TP next time 13 GOLD long L -0.44 -$44 view [Performance Mistake] it shouldve been a BE 16 GOLD short L -0.88 -$88 view 17 GOLD long BE +0.00 $0 view missed the trade bc i didnt execute with the close 18 GOLD long L -1.34 -$134 view 19 GOLD short L -0.92 -$92 view 25 GOLD long W +1.56 $156 view 27 GOLD long L -1.10 -$110 view 2 Feb · GOLD · short · L · -1.03R # there was an internal ITL\n3 Feb · GOLD · short · W · +0.96R # 4 Feb · GOLD · short · L · -1.03R # Never execute when price takes internal ITH/ITL after confirmation, thats where u place ur SL at BE or target\n5 Feb · GOLD · short · BE · +0.09R # i closed a profitable trade. only move SL to BE thats it no more\n9 Feb · GOLD · short · L · -1.18R # 10 Feb · GOLD · short · L · -1.00R # [Performance Mistake] plateform is shit first its fake confirmation\n10 Feb · GOLD · short · L · -0.97R # [Performance Mistake] then again gave me fake confirmation\n11 Feb · GOLD · long · W · +1.43R # have fait\n12 Feb · GOLD · short · W · +1.05R # wait more for ur TP next time\n13 Feb · GOLD · long · L · -0.44R # [Performance Mistake] it shouldve been a BE\n16 Feb · GOLD · short · L · -0.88R # 17 Feb · GOLD · long · BE · +0.00R # missed the trade bc i didnt execute with the close\n18 Feb · GOLD · long · L · -1.34R # 19 Feb · GOLD · short · L · -0.92R # 25 Feb · GOLD · long · W · +1.56R # 27 Feb · GOLD · long · L · -1.10R # ","date":"27 February 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2026-02/","section":"Trading","summary":"16 trades logged in February 2026.","title":"February 2026","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 5 GOLD short L -0.99 -$50 view m1/m3 fvg got inversed but m5 one did not wait across all timeframes 5 GOLD long BE +0.11 $6 view take whats given dont be greedy, I GOT A BE for a winner trade 5 GOLD short missed view FEAR OF LOSS HHHHHHH IM STUPID 5 GOLD short W +1.16 $58 view AMD setup short after 14H 6 GOLD long missed view 6 GOLD short missed view 6 GOLD short missed view 6 GOLD long L -1.02 -$51 view SL was tiny? idk but was a correct trade 7 GOLD short BE +0.00 $0 view very close to TP took BE lol 7 GOLD long BE +0.04 $1 view 8 GOLD long L -0.84 -$21 view this is not even a setup 8 GOLD long BE -0.05 -$1 view taking a lot of breakevens 8 GOLD long W +2.10 $52 view 8 GOLD long missed view news soon 9 GOLD long W +1.08 $27 view 9 GOLD short BE +0.01 $0 view BE then TP its fine 9 GOLD short L -0.98 -$24 data high/low setup big gap 9 GOLD short L -1.19 -$30 data high/low setup big gap 12 GOLD short BE -0.14 -$4 view moved SL to BE fast, only move SL when structure 12 GOLD long BE -0.24 -$6 view 13 GOLD short L -0.60 -$15 [Performance Mistake] 50/50 area where both condition for longs and shorts are present 13 GOLD long BE +0.00 $0 view 13 GOLD short W +1.06 $26 view 14 GOLD long W +1.03 $26 view 15 GOLD long W +1.01 $25 view 16 GOLD long L -1.02 -$25 view 16 GOLD long L -1.04 -$26 view 16 GOLD short L -1.69 -$42 view 19 GOLD short W +1.30 $32 view 20 GOLD short BE -0.06 -$3 I was attempting to short ATH, setup is present but i dont care if it works or not 20 GOLD long W +1.00 $50 view 21 GOLD long L -0.98 -$49 view my target is bad, its not ITH or ITL and there is target down 22 GOLD long W +1.06 $53 view 23 GOLD long L -0.91 -$45 view longing ITL instead of a lo without m5 or higher FVG 23 GOLD long L -1.25 -$63 view longing ITL instead of a lo without m5 or higher FVG 23 GOLD long L -1.04 -$52 view longing ITL instead of a lo without m5 or higher FVG 26 GOLD long W +1.03 $103 view none 27 GOLD long W +0.99 $99 view SL should be under the body\u0026rsquo;s close instead 29 GOLD long BE +0.01 $1 view 0.04 lot size is small (0.17-0.19) big SL bc ifvg 5 Jan · GOLD · short · L · -0.99R # m1/m3 fvg got inversed but m5 one did not wait across all timeframes\n5 Jan · GOLD · long · BE · +0.11R # take whats given dont be greedy, I GOT A BE for a winner trade\n5 Jan · GOLD · short · missed # FEAR OF LOSS HHHHHHH IM STUPID\n5 Jan · GOLD · short · W · +1.16R # AMD setup short after 14H\n6 Jan · GOLD · long · missed # 6 Jan · GOLD · short · missed # 6 Jan · GOLD · short · missed # 6 Jan · GOLD · long · L · -1.02R # SL was tiny? idk but was a correct trade\n7 Jan · GOLD · short · BE · +0.00R # very close to TP took BE lol\n7 Jan · GOLD · long · BE · +0.04R # 8 Jan · GOLD · long · L · -0.84R # this is not even a setup\n8 Jan · GOLD · long · BE · -0.05R # taking a lot of breakevens\n8 Jan · GOLD · long · W · +2.10R # 8 Jan · GOLD · long · missed # news soon\n9 Jan · GOLD · long · W · +1.08R # 9 Jan · GOLD · short · BE · +0.01R # BE then TP its fine\n9 Jan · GOLD · short · L · -0.98R # data high/low setup big gap\n9 Jan · GOLD · short · L · -1.19R # data high/low setup big gap\n12 Jan · GOLD · short · BE · -0.14R # moved SL to BE fast, only move SL when structure\n12 Jan · GOLD · long · BE · -0.24R # 13 Jan · GOLD · short · L · -0.60R # [Performance Mistake] 50/50 area where both condition for longs and shorts are present\n13 Jan · GOLD · long · BE · +0.00R # 13 Jan · GOLD · short · W · +1.06R # 14 Jan · GOLD · long · W · +1.03R # 15 Jan · GOLD · long · W · +1.01R # 16 Jan · GOLD · long · L · -1.02R # 16 Jan · GOLD · long · L · -1.04R # 16 Jan · GOLD · short · L · -1.69R # 19 Jan · GOLD · short · W · +1.30R # 20 Jan · GOLD · short · BE · -0.06R # I was attempting to short ATH, setup is present but i dont care if it works or not\n20 Jan · GOLD · long · W · +1.00R # 21 Jan · GOLD · long · L · -0.98R # my target is bad, its not ITH or ITL and there is target down\n22 Jan · GOLD · long · W · +1.06R # 23 Jan · GOLD · long · L · -0.91R # longing ITL instead of a lo without m5 or higher FVG\n23 Jan · GOLD · long · L · -1.25R # longing ITL instead of a lo without m5 or higher FVG\n23 Jan · GOLD · long · L · -1.04R # longing ITL instead of a lo without m5 or higher FVG\n26 Jan · GOLD · long · W · +1.03R # none\n27 Jan · GOLD · long · W · +0.99R # SL should be under the body\u0026rsquo;s close instead\n29 Jan · GOLD · long · BE · +0.01R # 0.04 lot size is small (0.17-0.19) big SL bc ifvg\n","date":"29 January 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2026-01/","section":"Trading","summary":"39 trades logged in January 2026.","title":"January 2026","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 1 GOLD short missed view no m3 ifvg no entry 2 GOLD long missed view no clear m3 ifvg with m1 cisd 2 GOLD short missed view it was at 16:00 outside my trading window\u0026hellip; but shouldve taken it 3 GOLD short L -1.16 -$58 view [Performance Mistake] did not wait for a stop hunt or m3 ifvg proper close 3 GOLD long missed view price delivery already bullish we dont need to wait for a sweep 4 GOLD short L -1.09 -$55 view the m3 ifvg was small and stop hunt was weird 4 GOLD short W +2.05 $103 view perfect trade if u ask me 5 GOLD short L -0.94 -$47 view nothing i can do more 5 GOLD short W +2.07 $104 view 8 GOLD short missed view 9 GOLD long BE +0.06 $3 view 15 GOLD long L -1.23 -$62 view 16 GOLD long L -1.05 -$53 view small ifvg? against bias? idk 16 GOLD short missed view i was afraid bc loss of yesterday lol (ASIA HIGH/LOW are the STRONGEST) 17 GOLD long L -1.02 -$51 view always wait for m3 ifvg in the displacement leg 17 GOLD long W +2.17 $108 view I was afraid so i took only 2RR, the plan was to take 3RR and price reversed from there 19 GOLD short L -1.02 -$51 view im thinking of using ifvgs as SL 19 GOLD short L -0.96 -$48 view 1 Dec · GOLD · short · missed # no m3 ifvg no entry\n2 Dec · GOLD · long · missed # no clear m3 ifvg with m1 cisd\n2 Dec · GOLD · short · missed # it was at 16:00 outside my trading window\u0026hellip; but shouldve taken it\n3 Dec · GOLD · short · L · -1.16R # [Performance Mistake] did not wait for a stop hunt or m3 ifvg proper close\n3 Dec · GOLD · long · missed # price delivery already bullish we dont need to wait for a sweep\n4 Dec · GOLD · short · L · -1.09R # the m3 ifvg was small and stop hunt was weird\n4 Dec · GOLD · short · W · +2.05R # perfect trade if u ask me\n5 Dec · GOLD · short · L · -0.94R # nothing i can do more\n5 Dec · GOLD · short · W · +2.07R # 8 Dec · GOLD · short · missed # 9 Dec · GOLD · long · BE · +0.06R # 15 Dec · GOLD · long · L · -1.23R # 16 Dec · GOLD · long · L · -1.05R # small ifvg? against bias? idk\n16 Dec · GOLD · short · missed # i was afraid bc loss of yesterday lol (ASIA HIGH/LOW are the STRONGEST)\n17 Dec · GOLD · long · L · -1.02R # always wait for m3 ifvg in the displacement leg\n17 Dec · GOLD · long · W · +2.17R # I was afraid so i took only 2RR, the plan was to take 3RR and price reversed from there\n19 Dec · GOLD · short · L · -1.02R # im thinking of using ifvgs as SL\n19 Dec · GOLD · short · L · -0.96R # ","date":"19 December 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-12/","section":"Trading","summary":"18 trades logged in December 2025.","title":"December 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 3 GOLD long L -1.16 -$58 view [Performance Mistake] News dropped, something I can\u0026rsquo;t control. Funny how it went to my TP later on haha. 4 GOLD short L -1.06 -$53 view [Performance Mistake] Went straight to target and below after 2.5 hours of consolidation and I didnt respect SL spread 5 GOLD long missed view Is it fear or is it wisdom? Avoid market opens and avoid news at all costs 6 GOLD long L -1.09 -$54 view [Analysis Mistake] from where price is delivering (buyside or sellside) 7 GOLD short W +2.45 $122 view price delivery is so important to decide where is the next draw 10 GOLD long W +1.89 $94 view 12 GOLD long L -1.00 -$100 view [Performance Mistake] risked 2%, one for CISD entry and one for iFVG apprently it always retrace to ifvg, i was curious 13 GOLD short missed view Fear of executing due to weird price action 17 GOLD long L -1.07 -$53 view got wicked out first time then reentered 17 GOLD long L -1.04 -$52 view fair loss 17 GOLD long W +2.51 $100 view price was consolidating in london but not a bad trade (no cisd tho) 18 GOLD short L -0.97 -$48 view [Performance Mistake] did not wait for CISD or a stop hunt (big mistake) 19 GOLD long W +1.46 $73 view 20 GOLD short W +2.01 $101 view DATA HIGH/LOW setup 20 GOLD short W +4.64 $232 view EQH swept on m1 (discretion) 21 GOLD long BE +0.04 $2 view watched my trade go from 2.8RR to 0RR 24 GOLD short L -0.87 -$44 view [Performance Mistake] impulsive entry without ifvg and without cisd 24 GOLD short BE +0.01 $0 view take 3RR if entry m3 IFVG else 2RR if CISD entry 25 GOLD long BE -0.08 -$4 view Ukraine agrees to terms of peace deal 26 GOLD short missed view hesitation, waiting for m3 cisd is useless, m1 cisd with m3 ifvg 27 GOLD long missed view never wait for m3 cisd. m1 stop hunt and cisd with m3 ifvg entry are enough 3 Nov · GOLD · long · L · -1.16R # [Performance Mistake] News dropped, something I can\u0026rsquo;t control. Funny how it went to my TP later on haha.\n4 Nov · GOLD · short · L · -1.06R # [Performance Mistake] Went straight to target and below after 2.5 hours of consolidation and I didnt respect SL spread\n5 Nov · GOLD · long · missed # Is it fear or is it wisdom? Avoid market opens and avoid news at all costs\n6 Nov · GOLD · long · L · -1.09R # [Analysis Mistake] from where price is delivering (buyside or sellside)\n7 Nov · GOLD · short · W · +2.45R # price delivery is so important to decide where is the next draw\n10 Nov · GOLD · long · W · +1.89R # 12 Nov · GOLD · long · L · -1.00R # [Performance Mistake] risked 2%, one for CISD entry and one for iFVG apprently it always retrace to ifvg, i was curious\n13 Nov · GOLD · short · missed # Fear of executing due to weird price action\n17 Nov · GOLD · long · L · -1.07R # got wicked out first time then reentered\n17 Nov · GOLD · long · L · -1.04R # fair loss\n17 Nov · GOLD · long · W · +2.51R # price was consolidating in london but not a bad trade (no cisd tho)\n18 Nov · GOLD · short · L · -0.97R # [Performance Mistake] did not wait for CISD or a stop hunt (big mistake)\n19 Nov · GOLD · long · W · +1.46R # 20 Nov · GOLD · short · W · +2.01R # DATA HIGH/LOW setup\n20 Nov · GOLD · short · W · +4.64R # EQH swept on m1 (discretion)\n21 Nov · GOLD · long · BE · +0.04R # watched my trade go from 2.8RR to 0RR\n24 Nov · GOLD · short · L · -0.87R # [Performance Mistake] impulsive entry without ifvg and without cisd\n24 Nov · GOLD · short · BE · +0.01R # take 3RR if entry m3 IFVG else 2RR if CISD entry\n25 Nov · GOLD · long · BE · -0.08R # Ukraine agrees to terms of peace deal\n26 Nov · GOLD · short · missed # hesitation, waiting for m3 cisd is useless, m1 cisd with m3 ifvg\n27 Nov · GOLD · long · missed # never wait for m3 cisd. m1 stop hunt and cisd with m3 ifvg entry are enough\n","date":"27 November 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-11/","section":"Trading","summary":"21 trades logged in November 2025.","title":"November 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 2 NQ long BE +0.00 view high resistance liquidity / no dol 6 NQ long W +1.50 view 17 NQ short L -1.00 view [mistake] ES took asia high but before market open invalid trade 17 NQ short BE +0.00 view EQL paired with m15 FVG reversed from 21 NQ long L -1.00 view ES took london high when im trying to long 22 NQ long L -1.00 view 24 NQ short W +1.50 view 2 Oct · NQ · long · BE · +0.00R # high resistance liquidity / no dol\n6 Oct · NQ · long · W · +1.50R # 17 Oct · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # [mistake] ES took asia high but before market open invalid trade\n17 Oct · NQ · short · BE · +0.00R # EQL paired with m15 FVG reversed from\n21 Oct · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # ES took london high when im trying to long\n22 Oct · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # 24 Oct · NQ · short · W · +1.50R # ","date":"24 October 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-10/","section":"Trading","summary":"7 trades logged in October 2025.","title":"October 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 2 NQ short missed view hard trade data ghi/low 2 NQ short W view data high/low trade 3 NQ short L -1.00 view [mistake] m5 cisd did not close - performance mistake 4 NQ long W +1.33 view TP edging me i closed -$15.5 5 NQ short W view NFP NEWS SETUP 9 NQ long L -1.00 view [mistake] cisd didnt close on futures (watch last leg ifvg m1) 9 NQ long L -1.00 view cisd didnt close on futures (watch last leg ifvg m1) 11 NQ short L -1.00 view CPI day: small ifvg maybe? 16 NQ long L -1.00 view 18 NQ long missed view check description 18 NQ long W view check description 23 NQ long L -1.00 view IFVG should be at the last leg inside the m5 CISD 26 NQ short L -1.00 view [mistake] NO IFVG BIG MISTAKE 26 NQ short W +1.50 view the real trade but NQ did not close properly 29 NQ long L -1.00 view Never trade continuation again 30 NQ long W +1.33 view 2 Sep · NQ · short · missed # hard trade data ghi/low\n2 Sep · NQ · short · W # data high/low trade\n3 Sep · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # [mistake] m5 cisd did not close - performance mistake\n4 Sep · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # TP edging me i closed -$15.5\n5 Sep · NQ · short · W # NFP NEWS SETUP\n9 Sep · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # [mistake] cisd didnt close on futures (watch last leg ifvg m1)\n9 Sep · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # cisd didnt close on futures (watch last leg ifvg m1)\n11 Sep · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # CPI day: small ifvg maybe?\n16 Sep · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # 18 Sep · NQ · long · missed # check description\n18 Sep · NQ · long · W # check description\n23 Sep · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # IFVG should be at the last leg inside the m5 CISD\n26 Sep · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # [mistake] NO IFVG BIG MISTAKE\n26 Sep · NQ · short · W · +1.50R # the real trade but NQ did not close properly\n29 Sep · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # Never trade continuation again\n30 Sep · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # ","date":"30 September 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-09/","section":"Trading","summary":"16 trades logged in September 2025.","title":"September 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 7 NQ short W +1.50 view 26 NQ short L -1.00 view 27 NQ long BE +0.00 view NEVER MOVE SL TO BE (was a win) 27 NQ long W +0.00 view NEVER MOVE SL TO BE 7 Aug · NQ · short · W · +1.50R # 26 Aug · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # 27 Aug · NQ · long · BE · +0.00R # NEVER MOVE SL TO BE (was a win)\n27 Aug · NQ · long · W · +0.00R # NEVER MOVE SL TO BE\n","date":"27 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-08/","section":"Trading","summary":"4 trades logged in August 2025.","title":"August 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":"","date":"22 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/series/notes-from-the-edge/","section":"Series","summary":"","title":"Notes From the Edge","type":"series"},{"content":"","date":"22 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/notes-from-the-edge/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Notes-From-the-Edge","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"22 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/series/","section":"Series","summary":"","title":"Series","type":"series"},{"content":"\u0026ldquo;The only way that we can live, is if we grow. The only way we can grow is if we change. The only way we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we can be exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open. Do it. Throw yourself out.\u0026rdquo; C. JoyBell C.\nYou, the Seeker, have journeyed with your horse to the very edge of conventional understanding. These \u0026lsquo;Notes from the Edge\u0026rsquo; are not merely observations, but a testament to the transformative power of aligning your inner self with your aspirations. Embrace the journey, for it is in the continuous pursuit of truth, even at the precipice of the unknown, that genuine fulfillment is found. May your path forward be one of purpose, growth, and profound discovery.\n","date":"22 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/18-conclusion-the-edge/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Edge","type":"posts"},{"content":"The ultimate aim of the Seeker\u0026rsquo;s journey is not merely external achievement, but a profound sense of internal fulfillment that accompanies and transcends it. The Be-Do-Have model inherently bridges this gap, revealing that true success is a symphony where both internal and external elements play in harmony.\nThe Be-Do-Have model reverses this. By first cultivating your \u0026lsquo;Being\u0026rsquo; - your core identity, values, and purpose - you lay the foundation for authentic action. When your \u0026lsquo;Doing\u0026rsquo; is aligned with this internal truth, the \u0026lsquo;Having\u0026rsquo; that follows is not just a material gain, but a natural extension of your integrated self. This creates a virtuous cycle: external achievements become reflections of your internal growth, and each success reinforces your sense of purpose and fulfillment.\n\u0026ldquo;Success without fulfillment is the ultimate failure.\u0026rdquo; Tony Robbins\nThis harmony means that even in the pursuit of external goals, the process itself is imbued with meaning. Setbacks are not failures, but opportunities for deeper \u0026lsquo;Being\u0026rsquo; and more refined \u0026lsquo;Doing.\u0026rsquo; The journey becomes as rewarding as the destination, because your internal state is not contingent on external outcomes. You are not chasing happiness; you are embodying it. This is the rider and horse moving as one, not just towards a destination, but enjoying every stride, every challenge, and every vista along the way, knowing that their partnership is the true reward.\n","date":"20 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/17-the-symphony-of-success-harmonizing-internal-fulfillment-and/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Symphony of Success: Harmonizing Internal Fulfillment and External Achievement","type":"posts"},{"content":"The Be-Do-Have model flips the conventional approach on its head and is a powerful framework for sustainable success and fulfillment. It starts with an internal shift:\n\u0026ldquo;The best way to predict the future is to create it.\u0026rdquo; Peter Drucker\nBE # Begin by being the person you need to be to achieve your goals. This involves cultivating the mindset, beliefs, values, and identity of someone who already embodies what they desire. For example, if you aspire to be a successful entrepreneur, start being confident, resourceful, resilient, and innovative right now. This is about internal alignment and self-perception. This internal shift is often rooted in faith or trust (whether in oneself, the universe, or a higher power). It\u0026rsquo;s the belief that by focusing on who you are becoming and taking aligned action, the desired outcomes will manifest. For many, this faith extends to a belief in God, providing a profound sense of peace and assurance that their path is divinely guided, and that challenges are opportunities for growth. In the analogy, this is the rider cultivating an unshakeable belief in his ability to guide the horse, and the horse, sensing this conviction, responds with trust and cooperation.\nDO # Once you are being that person, the doing naturally flows from your authentic self. Your actions will be aligned with your new identity and internal state. This is where the principle of burning the bridges becomes paramount. There is no Plan B. A backup plan is a subconscious admission of doubt that pollutes your commitment. By focusing all your energy on a single path, you signal to your subconscious mind that failure is not an option. This unwavering focus, fueled by a healthy obsession, is the essence of powerful action. A confident and resourceful entrepreneur does market research, does network strategically, and does take calculated risks with conviction because there is no other way forward.\nThis approach encourages process-oriented thinking. While outcomes are important, the primary focus is on the journey of becoming and the actions taken along the way. It\u0026rsquo;s about enjoying the learning, the growth, and the daily steps. When you are process-oriented, you find joy and fulfillment in the present moment, and the outcomes become a natural byproduct of a well-executed process. This approach fosters resilience, as setbacks are seen as part of the learning process, not as definitive failures. In the analogy of the man and his horse, this is the rider consistently training and guiding the horse, focusing on each step of the journey, knowing that consistent effort will lead them to their destination.\nHAVE # Finally, as a direct and inevitable result of being the right person and doing the aligned actions, you will have the desired outcomes. The success, the wealth, the fulfilling relationships, the vibrant health - these are the natural consequences of embodying the person you need to be and and taking inspired action. This model emphasizes attracting what you desire through internal congruence, rather than endlessly chasing external validation. In the analogy, this is the harmonious arrival at the destination, a natural outcome of the rider\u0026rsquo;s clear guidance and the horse\u0026rsquo;s willing cooperation.\n","date":"18 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/16-the-be-do-have-model-attracting-your-reality/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Be-Do-Have Model: Attracting Your Reality","type":"posts"},{"content":"The Seeker must accept a fundamental truth: life is not fair. It is a complex, chaotic, and often paradoxical game. The universe does not distribute talent, opportunity, or luck evenly. To pretend otherwise is to set yourself up for resentment and frustration. The key is not to demand fairness, but to learn to play the hand you are dealt with skill and wisdom.\n\u0026ldquo;The world is not a just place. It is a relentless and amoral arena where the strong, the clever, and the lucky prevail.\u0026rdquo; Unknown\nParadoxical thinking # This acceptance leads to the power of paradoxical thinking. Life is woven with contradictions, and wisdom lies in embracing them rather than fighting them. The ability to hold two opposing ideas in your mind and still function is a mark of a superior intellect. Many such paradoxes exist, but here are a few to contemplate:\nThe Paradox of Control: The more you try to control everything, the more you realize how little control you have. True control comes from letting go. The Paradox of Choice: More options often lead to less satisfaction and greater paralysis. Freedom is found in disciplined commitment, not endless choice. The Paradox of Effort: Sometimes, the harder you try to force an outcome, the more it eludes you. Effortless action, born from a state of flow, is often the most effective. The Paradox of Success: What makes you successful in one stage of life can become the very thing that holds you back in the next. The Paradox of Surrender: You cannot win some battles by fighting harder, but only by surrendering to a reality you cannot change. The Paradox of Time: When you give time away freely to things that matter, you feel like you have more of it. When you hoard it, it feels scarce. The Paradox of Happiness: The more you actively chase happiness, the more it slips through your fingers. It is a byproduct of a life lived with purpose. The Paradox of Learning: The more you learn, the more you become aware of your own ignorance. The Paradox of Freedom: True freedom is not the absence of constraints, but the disciplined choice of which constraints to live by. Contrarian thinking # This understanding naturally gives rise to contrarian thinking. If most people are following conventional wisdom - often rooted in the ineffective Have-Do-Be model - then exceptional results will be found by doing the opposite. When everyone else is chasing the same carrot, the contrarian finds a different, more abundant field. This is not about being different for the sake of being different, but about thinking independently and questioning the assumptions that hold the masses captive. The contrarian path is often lonely and requires immense conviction, but it is the only path to extraordinary outcomes. In the analogy of the man and his horse, this is like the rider who, instead of following the well-trodden but inefficient path with the crowd, bravely chooses a less popular but ultimately more direct and rewarding route, trusting his own judgment and the horse\u0026rsquo;s capabilities, even when others doubt.\n","date":"16 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/15-embracing-the-unfair-game-paradox-and-contrarian-thinking/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"Embracing the Unfair Game: Paradox and Contrarian Thinking","type":"posts"},{"content":"To effectively navigate the complexities of life, the Seeker must cultivate a toolbox of mental models. These are frameworks for thinking that help you simplify and understand the world, allowing you to make better decisions. They are like different maps for different terrains; having a variety of them prevents you from getting lost.\n\u0026ldquo;The map is not the territory.\u0026rdquo; Alfred Korzybski\nHere are a few essential models to begin with:\nThe 80/20 Principle (Pareto Principle): This model suggests that, for many events, roughly 80% of the effects come from 20% of the causes. Identify the vital few activities that yield the most significant results and focus your energy there. This is the art of strategic leverage. Inversion: Instead of thinking forward about how to achieve a goal, think backward. Ask yourself, \u0026ldquo;What would guarantee failure?\u0026rdquo; By identifying and avoiding the pitfalls, you clear the path to success. As the saying goes, \u0026ldquo;Invert, always invert.\u0026rdquo; First-Principles Thinking: This is the practice of breaking down complex problems into their most basic, foundational elements and reasoning up from there. It allows you to see beyond conventional wisdom and discover innovative solutions. Circle of Competence: Know what you know, and more importantly, know what you don\u0026rsquo;t know. Operating within your circle of competence allows you to make decisions from a position of strength and avoid costly mistakes in areas where you lack expertise. By continuously learning and applying these and other mental models, you equip yourself with a more accurate and versatile understanding of reality. This is the rider not just knowing his destination, but also understanding the principles of navigation, the weather patterns, and the nature of the terrain itself.\n","date":"14 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/14-navigating-reality-the-power-of-mental-models/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"Navigating Reality: The Power of Mental Models","type":"posts"},{"content":"Our approach to goals is also shaped by how we perceive reality. A crucial distinction lies between process-oriented thinking and outcome-oriented thinking. The Have-Do-Be and Do-Have-Be models are heavily outcome-oriented. The focus is solely on the end result, and if that result isn\u0026rsquo;t achieved, it can lead to disappointment and a sense of failure. This can make the journey feel like a means to an end, rather than a valuable experience in itself.\n\u0026ldquo;The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.\u0026rdquo; Lao Tzu\nThe Be-Do-Have model, however, encourages process-oriented thinking. While outcomes are important, the primary focus is on the journey of becoming and the actions taken along the way. It\u0026rsquo;s about enjoying the learning, the growth, and the daily steps. When you are process-oriented, you find joy and fulfillment in the present moment, and the outcomes become a natural byproduct of a well-executed process. This approach fosters resilience, as setbacks are seen as part of the learning process, not as definitive failures. In the man and horse analogy, this is the rider focusing on the rhythm of the ride, the training of the horse, and the beauty of the landscape, knowing that the destination will be reached in due course.\nFinally, consider how we perceive reality: through a dualistic or probabilistic lens. Dualistic thinking sees the world in terms of rigid binaries: right/wrong, success/failure, good/bad. This black-and-white perspective can lead to extreme judgments, fear of failure, and a limited view of a possibility. It often fuels the outcome-oriented mindset, where anything less than perfect success is deemed a complete failure.\nProbabilistic thinking, on the other hand, embraces nuance and uncertainty. It understands that life is a spectrum of possibilities, and that outcomes are rarely guaranteed but rather exist on a scale of likelihood. This mindset allows for flexibility, adaptation, and a more realistic approach to challenges. Instead of fearing failure, you assess probabilities, learn from experiences, and adjust your approach. It fosters a growth mindset, where every attempt, regardless of its immediate outcome, provides valuable data for future endeavors. This perspective aligns beautifully with the Be-Do-Have model, as it encourages continuous evolution and a deeper understanding of the interconnectedness of being, doing, and having. It\u0026rsquo;s like the rider understanding that the journey isn\u0026rsquo;t always a straight line, and sometimes the horse will stumble, but with a flexible approach, they will still reach their destination.\n","date":"12 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/13-thinking-paradigms-process-probability-and-beyond-dualism/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"Thinking Paradigms: Process, Probability, and Beyond Dualism","type":"posts"},{"content":"At the heart of discipline lies a fundamental conflict that every Seeker must master: the battle between instant gratification and delayed gratification. This is the daily struggle between the man and his horse. The horse, driven by instinct, craves immediate pleasure - the sugar cube now, the easy path, the rest in the shade. It operates on the principle of \u0026lsquo;I want it now.\u0026rsquo; The rider, however, understands the map. He knows that indulging every immediate whim of the horse will lead them astray, far from their ultimate destination. He must train the horse to forgo the immediate, lesser pleasure for the greater, future reward.\n\u0026ldquo;Discipline is choosing between what you want now and what you want most.\u0026rdquo; Attributed to Abraham Lincoln\nInstant gratification # Instant gratification is the enemy of meaningful achievement. It is the siren call of comfort, distraction, and ease that pulls you off course. In the modern world, it is a weaponized force, with technology and consumer culture designed to deliver immediate dopamine hits, conditioning your horse to expect constant rewards with minimal effort. Succumbing to it is choosing the fleeting pleasure of the moment over the profound satisfaction of long-term success. It keeps you trapped in the lower-level paradigms, forever chasing external fixes (Have-Do-Be) or burning out on directionless action (Do-Have-Be).\nDelayed gratification # Delayed gratification, on the other hand, is one of the most potent predictors of success. It is the conscious decision to endure temporary discomfort for a more significant future outcome. It is the student who forgoes a party to study for an exam, the entrepreneur who reinvests profits instead of taking a lavish salary, and the athlete who pushes through a grueling workout. This is the rider convincing the horse to climb a steep, difficult hill because he can see the beautiful valley on the other side. This ability is not about self-denial; it is about self-investment. It is the cornerstone of the Be-Do-Have model, where you be the person who is disciplined enough to do what is necessary, so you can have what you truly desire. Here, obsession becomes a powerful ally, transforming the conscious choice of discipline into an unyielding drive that makes delayed gratification not just tolerable, but an inherent part of your pursuit.\nTraining the horse, not punishing it # Mastering this internal conflict does not mean punishing the horse for its desires. It means training it. It means breaking down the long journey into manageable steps and celebrating the completion of those steps - finding joy in the process. It means keeping the vision of the destination so clear and compelling that the horse begins to trust the rider\u0026rsquo;s guidance, understanding that the temporary sacrifice is part of a much grander adventure. By consistently choosing the path of delayed gratification, you are not just moving towards a goal; you are forging an unbreakable will and a powerful partnership between your mind and your body.\n","date":"10 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/12-the-great-battle-delayed-vs-instant-gratification/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Great Battle: Delayed vs. Instant Gratification","type":"posts"},{"content":"Flow states are powerful, but they are not accidental. They are the result of a deep, underlying structure of discipline and consistency. While focus gets you into the zone, it is discipline that builds the runway for takeoff. Discipline is the conscious choice to do what needs to be done, even when you don\u0026rsquo;t feel like it. It is the bridge between your goals and your accomplishments.\n\u0026ldquo;We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.\u0026rdquo; Will Durant\nConsistency is the force multiplier of discipline. It is the relentless application of effort over time, in significant volume, that forges new habits and rewires your subconscious. A single, heroic effort is impressive, but it is the steady, daily practice that creates lasting change. In our analogy, this is the rider training the horse every single day, not just when the mood strikes. This consistent training builds the trust and muscle memory that makes complex maneuvers seem effortless in the future.\nHowever, for true mastery, discipline often needs to evolve into something more profound: obsession. While discipline is the conscious choice to do what needs to be done, obsession is the burning, unyielding desire that makes the \u0026lsquo;doing\u0026rsquo; not just a choice, but an absolute necessity. It\u0026rsquo;s the relentless pursuit that transcends mere habit, transforming effort into an almost involuntary drive. For the Seeker aiming for unparalleled heights, remember: obsession always beats discipline. It is the fuel that sustains the journey when discipline alone might falter, pushing you beyond perceived limits and into the realm of extraordinary achievement. This healthy obsession, when integrated with the \u0026lsquo;Be-Do-Have\u0026rsquo; model, becomes a powerful force. It ensures that your \u0026lsquo;doing\u0026rsquo; is not just consistent, but also intensely focused and driven by an internal fire, making the manifestation of your desired \u0026lsquo;have\u0026rsquo; almost inevitable.\nThis journey of disciplined action must be paired with reflection. To ensure you are on the right path, you must regularly pause to review your progress. A powerful tool for this is journaling. By externalizing your thoughts, you can analyze your actions, celebrate your wins, and learn from your setbacks with greater objectivity. It provides a space to ask critical questions: Are my actions aligned with my identity? Am I moving closer to my goals? What adjustments do I need to make? This reflective practice is the rider consulting his map and compass, ensuring that the consistent movement is in the right direction, and making course corrections as needed.\n","date":"8 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/11-the-engine-of-progress-discipline-consistency-and-reflection/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Engine of Progress: Discipline, Consistency, and Reflection","type":"posts"},{"content":"To truly excel in the \u0026lsquo;Doing\u0026rsquo; phase, it is essential to master your state of being. This goes beyond mere action and delves into the quality of your performance, which hinges on three pillars: Energy, Clarity, and Focus.\nFirst, Energy is the fuel of ambition. High achievement is not sustained by willpower alone, but by vibrant physical and mental energy. This means prioritizing sleep, nutrition, and exercise not as chores, but as critical components of your success architecture. A tired mind cannot think clearly, and a weary body cannot execute with precision. In our analogy, this is ensuring the horse is well-fed, rested, and in peak condition before a long journey.\nNext, Clarity is the compass, and it begins with a fundamental question: Why? Before you concern yourself with \u0026lsquo;what\u0026rsquo; you need to do or \u0026lsquo;how\u0026rsquo; you will do it, you must have a profound understanding of your purpose. This is the principle of starting with your \u0026lsquo;why.\u0026rsquo; It is the core belief, the cause, or the purpose that drives you. Without a powerful \u0026lsquo;why,\u0026rsquo; your motivation will be shallow and fleeting, easily derailed by obstacles.\n\u0026ldquo;People don\u0026rsquo;t buy what you do; they buy why you do it. And what you do simply proves what you believe.\u0026rdquo; Simon Sinek\nWhen your \u0026lsquo;why\u0026rsquo; is clear, the \u0026lsquo;how\u0026rsquo; and \u0026lsquo;what\u0026rsquo; begin to fall into place with much less resistance. Your purpose becomes the ultimate filter for your decisions, ensuring that your actions are not just busywork, but meaningful steps aligned with your core identity. This clarity provides the unwavering motivation needed to sustain effort through the most challenging times.\nFinally, Focus is the application of energy with clarity. In a world saturated with distractions, the ability to concentrate on a single, important task is a superpower. This means consciously choosing to do one thing at a time and seeing it through to completion. Multitasking is a myth that divides your energy and diminishes the quality of your output. True progress comes from deep, uninterrupted work on your highest priorities. This level of unwavering focus often stems from a profound obsession, a relentless drive that makes distractions fade and propels you towards mastery.\n\u0026ldquo;The successful warrior is the average man, with laser-like focus.\u0026rdquo; Bruce Lee\nWhen these three elements converge, you enter a state of Flow, often described as \u0026lsquo;being in the zone.\u0026rsquo; In this state, you are fully immersed in an activity, feeling energized, and performing at your peak. Time seems to melt away, and your actions flow effortlessly and intuitively. This is the optimal state for \u0026lsquo;Doing,\u0026rsquo; where your internal state of \u0026lsquo;Being\u0026rsquo; translates into masterful execution.\n","date":"6 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/10-the-state-of-high-performance-energy-clarity-and-focus/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The State of High Performance: Energy, Clarity, and Focus","type":"posts"},{"content":"Beyond models and thinking paradigms, our emotional state plays a pivotal role in our journey. True mastery involves not just intellectual understanding, but also the ability to navigate and leverage our emotions. Emotional awareness is the capacity to recognize and understand our own feelings, as well as those of others. It\u0026rsquo;s about being present with your emotions, rather than suppressing or being overwhelmed by them.\n\u0026ldquo;Anyone can be angry - that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not easy.\u0026rdquo; Aristotle\nEmotional control, often misunderstood as suppression, is actually the ability to choose how we respond to our emotions. It\u0026rsquo;s about pausing between stimulus and response, allowing us to react consciously rather than impulsively. When we operate from a place of fear, our emotions can hijack our decisions, leading to reactive behaviors that are misaligned with our true aspirations. However, by cultivating emotional awareness and control, we can transform fear into a signal for growth, and channel our emotions constructively. This allows us to maintain a state of inner calm and clarity, even amidst external chaos, reinforcing our ability to \u0026lsquo;Be\u0026rsquo; the person we intend to be, and \u0026lsquo;Do\u0026rsquo; the actions that truly serve our highest good. Think of it as the rider learning to calm and guide his horse through a storm, rather than being pulled along by its panic.\nWith a clear understanding of our inner emotional landscape, we can now explore how to optimize our state for peak performance and effective action.\n","date":"4 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/09-emotional-intelligence-navigating-your-inner-world/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"Emotional Intelligence: Navigating Your Inner World","type":"posts"},{"content":"Beyond the purely tangible, our internal states - our thoughts, emotions, and beliefs - profoundly influence our physiological responses, cognitive patterns, and behavioral tendencies. This intricate interplay forms a dynamic internal \u0026lsquo;blueprint\u0026rsquo; that shapes how we perceive and interact with the world. Understanding this fundamental principle is key to consciously shaping your reality.\n\u0026ldquo;If you want to find the secrets of the universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration.\u0026rdquo; Nikola Tesla\nFear or trust # Underlying all these models is our fundamental mindset. Are we operating from a place of fear or faith/trust? Fear-based thinking often drives the Have-Do-Be and Do-Have-Be models. We fear not having enough, not being good enough, or not achieving external markers of success. This fear can lead to anxiety, constant striving, and a feeling of never being truly satisfied.\nIn contrast, operating from a place of faith or trust (whether in oneself, the universe, or a higher power) aligns more with the Be-Do-Have model. It\u0026rsquo;s the belief that by focusing on who you are becoming and taking aligned action, the desired outcomes will manifest. This doesn\u0026rsquo;t mean passive waiting, but rather a confident and purposeful engagement with life, knowing that your efforts are guided and supported. This faith, when coupled with a healthy obsession, transforms mere effort into an unstoppable force, propelling you towards your goals with unwavering conviction. For many, this faith extends to a belief in God, providing a profound sense of peace and assurance that their path is divinely guided, and that challenges are opportunities for growth. In the analogy, this faith is the rider\u0026rsquo;s unwavering belief in his ability to guide the horse, and the horse\u0026rsquo;s trust in the rider\u0026rsquo;s direction, even when the path is uncertain.\nScarcity or abundance # This understanding profoundly impacts your mindset. A scarcity mindset is characterized by a persistent focus on perceived limitations, fear, and competition. This cognitive pattern can trigger physiological stress responses, narrow attentional focus, and lead to behaviors such as hoarding, a reluctance to collaborate, and chronic anxiety about resources or missed opportunities. In this state, your internal system is primed to detect and reinforce perceived lack.\nConversely, an abundance mindset fosters a state of gratitude, generosity, and collaboration. This cognitive and emotional orientation promotes neural pathways associated with positive affect and open-mindedness, leading to behaviors such as freely sharing knowledge, celebrating the successes of others, and confidently pursuing new ventures. This mindset cultivates an internal environment conducive to recognizing and attracting opportunities.\nEmotions as signals # Your emotions are powerful indicators of your current internal state. Chronic engagement with emotions like shame, guilt, apathy, grief, fear, and anger can lead to sustained physiological stress responses and reinforce limiting cognitive biases. In contrast, cultivating emotions such as courage, neutrality, willingness, acceptance, reason, love, joy, peace, and enlightenment promotes states of well-being and cognitive flexibility. To shift towards more adaptive internal states, cultivate practices like mindfulness, daily gratitude, positive affirmations, acts of selfless service, and spending time in nature. These practices consciously influence your neurochemistry and cognitive patterns, fostering an internal environment aligned with growth and opportunity. This conscious cultivation of your internal blueprint is a vital component of the \u0026lsquo;Be\u0026rsquo; in the Be-Do-Have model, allowing you to attract your desired reality by first embodying it internally.\nIn the analogy of the man and his horse, this \u0026rsquo;energetic blueprint\u0026rsquo; is akin to the overall \u0026lsquo;mood\u0026rsquo; or \u0026lsquo;disposition\u0026rsquo; of the horse, which is heavily influenced by the rider\u0026rsquo;s (your conscious mind\u0026rsquo;s) consistent guidance and internal state. A rider who constantly projects fear and scarcity will find his horse anxious and resistant, prone to stumbling or shying away from challenges. Conversely, a rider who embodies confidence and abundance, consistently guiding him with clear, positive intent, will find the horse responsive, powerful, and eager to move forward, even through unfamiliar terrain. Your conscious choices as the \u0026lsquo;rider\u0026rsquo; directly shape the \u0026lsquo;horse\u0026rsquo;s\u0026rsquo; (your subconscious and physiological responses) readiness to navigate the journey of manifestation.\n","date":"2 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/08-the-energetic-blueprint-frequencies-mindsets-and-manifestati/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Energetic Blueprint: Frequencies, Mindsets, and Manifestation","type":"posts"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 1 NQ short W +1.50 view powell speaks 1 NQ short W view powell speaks 2 NQ short L -1.33 view when a big move wait for an extra m5 candle or appropriate lot size 3 NQ short L -1.00 view no reason to trade 8 NQ short L -1.33 view no ifvg 10 NQ long W +1.50 view less than 0.10 lot means 40% ml range 10 NQ long L -1.00 view should have waited for 40% ml range 11 NQ short W +1.50 view 16 NQ long W +1.50 view good trade but red news dropped 1.5 target 16 NQ long L -1.00 view winning trade turned losing bc of trump\u0026hellip;. 23 NQ long W +1.50 view 25 NQ long W +1.50 view i missed watch out the wicks 29 NQ short W +1.50 view valdi continuation 31 NQ long L -1.00 view small ifvg 1 Jul · NQ · short · W · +1.50R # powell speaks\n1 Jul · NQ · short · W # powell speaks\n2 Jul · NQ · short · L · -1.33R # when a big move wait for an extra m5 candle or appropriate lot size\n3 Jul · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # no reason to trade\n8 Jul · NQ · short · L · -1.33R # no ifvg\n10 Jul · NQ · long · W · +1.50R # less than 0.10 lot means 40% ml range\n10 Jul · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # should have waited for 40% ml range\n11 Jul · NQ · short · W · +1.50R # 16 Jul · NQ · long · W · +1.50R # good trade but red news dropped 1.5 target\n16 Jul · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # winning trade turned losing bc of trump\u0026hellip;.\n23 Jul · NQ · long · W · +1.50R # 25 Jul · NQ · long · W · +1.50R # i missed watch out the wicks\n29 Jul · NQ · short · W · +1.50R # valdi continuation\n31 Jul · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # small ifvg\n","date":"31 July 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-07/","section":"Trading","summary":"14 trades logged in July 2025.","title":"July 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":"As we explore the power of self-image, we must also acknowledge a significant pitfall: the Dunning-Kruger effect. This cognitive bias describes a phenomenon where individuals with low ability in a specific area tend to overestimate their competence. In essence, they are too unskilled to recognize their own lack of skill. This can lead to a dangerous, unearned confidence - a phenomenon sometimes humorously called the \u0026ldquo;Peak of Mount Stupid.\u0026rdquo;\n\u0026ldquo;The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, and wiser people so full of doubts.\u0026rdquo; Bertrand Russell\nThe shape everyone draws - confidence against competence:\nThe popular illustration, not data from the original 1999 paper - the named stages are folklore, but the trap they describe is real.\nFor the Seeker, the Dunning-Kruger effect is a critical trap. It can prevent you from seeking knowledge, ignoring constructive feedback, and making costly mistakes, all while believing you are on the right path. In our analogy, this is the rider who, having only glanced at a map, confidently leads his horse into a swamp, dismissing the horse\u0026rsquo;s hesitation and the rustling sounds in the bushes as irrelevant. Overcoming this requires a commitment to intellectual humility, a continuous quest for knowledge, and the courage to embrace the discomfort of not knowing. True wisdom begins when we become aware of the vastness of our own ignorance.\n","date":"31 July 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/07-the-dunning-kruger-effect-the-peak-of-mount-stupid/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Dunning-Kruger Effect: The Peak of \"Mount Stupid\"","type":"posts"},{"content":"Before we delve into the transformative Be-Do-Have model, it\u0026rsquo;s crucial to understand the foundational role of your self-image. Your self-image is the mental picture you have of yourself - your beliefs about who you are, what you\u0026rsquo;re capable of, and what you deserve. It\u0026rsquo;s the blueprint that dictates your actions and ultimately, your results.\n\u0026ldquo;Man cannot consistently act beyond what he believes himself to be.\u0026rdquo; Maxwell Maltz, Psycho-Cybernetics\nIf you perceive yourself as incapable, unworthy, or unlucky, your actions will unconsciously align with that belief, creating a self-fulfilling prophecy. Conversely, a strong, positive self-image empowers you to take bold actions and persist through challenges, because you inherently believe in your capacity to succeed. Cultivating a healthy self-image is the first step towards truly embodying the \u0026lsquo;Be\u0026rsquo; in the Be-Do-Have model. It\u0026rsquo;s like the rider clearly visualizing the horse\u0026rsquo;s strength and capability, and the horse, in turn, sensing the rider\u0026rsquo;s confidence and responding in kind.\n","date":"29 July 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/06-the-power-of-self-image-who-you-believe-you-are/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Power of Self-Image: Who You Believe You Are","type":"posts"},{"content":"A slight improvement, the Do-Have-Be model focuses on action. Here, individuals believe they must first do something (e.g., work hard, hustle relentlessly, network constantly) to have something (e.g., a promotion, wealth, recognition), which then allows them to be a certain way (e.g., respected, powerful, secure). This model is heavily promoted in professional life and the hustle culture.\n\u0026ldquo;I will do everything it takes to have success, so I can finally be happy.\u0026rdquo;\nWhile this model emphasizes effort and action, it often leads to burnout, stress, and a feeling of emptiness. The relentless pursuit of external achievements without internal alignment can deplete your energy and leave you wondering if it was all worth it. This approach is often heavily outcome-oriented; the focus is solely on the end result, and if that result isn\u0026rsquo;t achieved, it can lead to disappointment and a sense of failure. This can make the journey feel like a means to an end, rather than a valuable experience in itself. It\u0026rsquo;s better than just waiting to have, but it can still lead to an unfulfilling existence if the \u0026lsquo;doing\u0026rsquo; isn\u0026rsquo;t aligned with an internal sense of purpose. In our analogy, this is the rider constantly spurring the horse forward, exhausting both himself and the animal, without a clear destination or understanding of the horse\u0026rsquo;s needs.\n","date":"27 July 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/05-the-do-have-be-model-the-treadmill-of-action/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Do-Have-Be Model: The Treadmill of Action","type":"posts"},{"content":"This is the most common, yet often least effective, approach. In the Have-Do-Be model, people believe they first need to have something (e.g., a degree, money, a specific relationship) in order to do something (e.g., get a good job, start a business, be happy), which then allows them to be a certain way (e.g., successful, fulfilled, loved).\n\u0026ldquo;If only I had X, then I could do Y, and then I would be Z.\u0026rdquo;\nFrom a young age, our educational systems often reinforce this model. We are taught to have good grades to do well in college, to have a degree to do a certain job, and then we can finally be successful. This model often leads to a perpetual state of chasing. We constantly seek external possessions or circumstances, believing that once we acquire them, happiness and fulfillment will automatically follow. This pursuit is often driven by fear - fear of not having enough, not being good enough, or not achieving external markers of success. This fear can lead to anxiety, constant striving, and a feeling of never being truly satisfied. However, this can be a trap, as external achievements often provide only temporary satisfaction, leaving us feeling unfulfilled and always wanting more. It\u0026rsquo;s a cycle of external validation, where our sense of self-worth is tied to what we possess. In the analogy of the man and his horse, this is like the rider constantly seeking external carrots to motivate the horse, rather than training it to move forward with internal drive.\n","date":"25 July 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/04-the-have-do-be-model-the-illusion-of-external-success/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Have-Do-Be Model: The Illusion of External Success","type":"posts"},{"content":"The psychologist Carl Jung introduced a profound concept for self-mastery: the Shadow. The Shadow is the part of our unconscious mind that contains all the traits, impulses, and desires we repress or deny - the aspects of ourselves we deem unacceptable. Engaging in Shadow Work is the courageous process of bringing these hidden elements into conscious awareness, not to eliminate them, but to understand and integrate them.\n\u0026ldquo;Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.\u0026rdquo; Carl Jung\nWhen we fail to confront our Shadow, it projects itself onto our lives, causing us to act in ways we don\u0026rsquo;t understand and leading to outcomes we blame on external forces. This brings us back to our analogy. The horse represents the unconscious, and its hidden fears, stubborn resistance, or sudden bolts of panic are manifestations of the rider\u0026rsquo;s unacknowledged Shadow. If the rider ignores these behaviors, he will be constantly thwarted, believing his journey is cursed by \u0026ldquo;fate.\u0026rdquo; However, by courageously exploring why the horse is afraid or resistant - by doing the shadow work - the rider can integrate this powerful, wild energy. He learns to work with the horse, transforming its raw power from an obstacle into a source of immense strength, ensuring the journey is one of conscious choice, not unconscious compulsion.\n","date":"23 July 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/03-shadow-work-making-the-unconscious-conscious/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"Shadow Work: Making the Unconscious Conscious","type":"posts"},{"content":"Before we explore these paradigms, let\u0026rsquo;s consider a powerful analogy that will help illuminate the dynamics at play within ourselves: the man and his horse. Imagine you are a rider, and your body is a magnificent, powerful horse.\n\u0026ldquo;The body is the instrument of our soul, and the mind is its conductor.\u0026rdquo; B.K.S. Iyengar\nThe Man (Your Mind): The rider represents your conscious mind. He is the strategist, the planner, the one who understands maps and directions. He thinks in concepts, recognizes patterns, and can process information at incredible speeds. He can envision distant goals and devise complex routes to reach them. He is fast, analytical, and driven by purpose. The Horse (Your Body): The horse represents your physical body and its subconscious processes. It is powerful and capable, but it understands through feelings, sensations, and repetition. It thrives on comfort, seeks familiar paths, and can be resistant to change. It learns through consistent training and habit, not through abstract thought. The horse is slow to change its ways, but once a habit is ingrained, it can carry you forward with immense momentum. For true progress, the man and the horse must work in harmony. A rider who constantly battles his horse, or one who lets the horse wander aimlessly, will never reach his destination efficiently. The man must guide with clear intent, and the horse must be trained to follow, even when the path is unfamiliar or uncomfortable. Throughout this message, keep this analogy in mind, as it will help you understand the interplay between your conscious intentions and your ingrained patterns.\n","date":"21 July 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/02-the-man-and-his-horse-an-analogy-for-mind-and-body/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Man and His Horse: An Analogy for Mind and Body","type":"posts"},{"content":"Greetings, Seeker. You embark on a journey, much like a rider on a quest, seeking truths beyond the familiar horizon. These are \u0026lsquo;Notes from the Edge\u0026rsquo; - insights gleaned from venturing beyond the well-trodden paths of conventional wisdom. This collection challenges ingrained beliefs and offers a transformative path to profound and sustainable fulfillment. We will explore fundamental paradigms that govern our pursuit of goals: Have-Do-Be, Do-Have-Be, and the ultimate destination, the Be-Do-Have.\nThe three, side by side - each gets its own post:\nModel Starts from What drives it Where it tends to end Have-Do-Be what you have fear of not having enough chasing external markers, never satisfied Do-Have-Be what you do hustle, outcome-fixation burnout, effort without alignment Be-Do-Have who you are identity, internal alignment action that flows, results that follow \u0026ldquo;The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.\u0026rdquo; Marcel Proust\n","date":"19 July 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/01-introduction-the-rider-s-quest-to-the-edge/","section":"Posts","summary":"","title":"The Rider's Quest to the Edge","type":"posts"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 5 NQ long W +0.00 view traded this demo 6 NQ long L -1.00 view 9 NQ long W +1.33 view 16 NQ long W +1.33 view 17 NQ short W +0.00 view 19 NQ short L -1.00 view fake cisd no trade day 20 NQ short W +0.00 view quad witching day (always bearish/tradable) 20 NQ short W +2.00 view quad witching day (always bearish/tradable) 23 NQ long L -1.00 view 23 NQ short W +2.00 view 26 NQ long W +2.00 view IM NEVER MOVING SL TO BE 27 NQ short W +2.00 view 30 NQ long L -1.00 view 5 Jun · NQ · long · W · +0.00R # traded this demo\n6 Jun · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # 9 Jun · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # 16 Jun · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # 17 Jun · NQ · short · W · +0.00R # 19 Jun · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # fake cisd no trade day\n20 Jun · NQ · short · W · +0.00R # quad witching day (always bearish/tradable)\n20 Jun · NQ · short · W · +2.00R # quad witching day (always bearish/tradable)\n23 Jun · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # 23 Jun · NQ · short · W · +2.00R # 26 Jun · NQ · long · W · +2.00R # IM NEVER MOVING SL TO BE\n27 Jun · NQ · short · W · +2.00R # 30 Jun · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # ","date":"30 June 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-06/","section":"Trading","summary":"13 trades logged in June 2025.","title":"June 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 2 NQ long W +1.00 view 15 NQ short L -1.00 view 16 NQ long W +1.00 view 19 NQ short L -1.00 view If position takes more than 30m / 6 M5 candles close it 20 NQ short L -0.33 view 20 NQ long L +0.00 view 20 NQ long W view 22 NQ short W +1.33 view 29 NQ long L -1.00 view no pd array close + 2 candle formation (not 3) 29 NQ long W +0.00 view did not close 1RR partial (BE) 2 May · NQ · long · W · +1.00R # 15 May · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # 16 May · NQ · long · W · +1.00R # 19 May · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # If position takes more than 30m / 6 M5 candles close it\n20 May · NQ · short · L · -0.33R # 20 May · NQ · long · L · +0.00R # 20 May · NQ · long · W # 22 May · NQ · short · W · +1.33R # 29 May · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # no pd array close + 2 candle formation (not 3)\n29 May · NQ · long · W · +0.00R # did not close 1RR partial (BE)\n","date":"29 May 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-05/","section":"Trading","summary":"10 trades logged in May 2025.","title":"May 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 1 NQ long W +1.33 view 2 NQ long L -1.00 view 21:00 trump speaks (bad idea to participate) 7 NQ long W +1.33 view 8 NQ long W +0.50 view 8 NQ short W +1.50 view 8 NQ short W +1.00 view 9 NQ short W +0.50 view 10 NQ long L -1.00 view 11 NQ long W +1.50 view 16 NQ long W +1.50 view Fed Chair Speaks later 16 NQ long W +0.50 view Fed Chair Speaks later 17 NQ long W +0.67 view 21 NQ short W +1.50 view Monday, day after holiday (Friday) 22 NQ long W +0.67 view 23 NQ short W +1.33 view 10 am data high sweep 24 NQ short L -1.00 view Swept previous day high but a valid loss 28 NQ long L -1.00 view there was no setup long and the short was correct 29 NQ long W +0.50 view 30 NQ long W +1.33 view 1 Apr · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # 2 Apr · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # 21:00 trump speaks (bad idea to participate)\n7 Apr · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # 8 Apr · NQ · long · W · +0.50R # 8 Apr · NQ · short · W · +1.50R # 8 Apr · NQ · short · W · +1.00R # 9 Apr · NQ · short · W · +0.50R # 10 Apr · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # 11 Apr · NQ · long · W · +1.50R # 16 Apr · NQ · long · W · +1.50R # Fed Chair Speaks later\n16 Apr · NQ · long · W · +0.50R # Fed Chair Speaks later\n17 Apr · NQ · long · W · +0.67R # 21 Apr · NQ · short · W · +1.50R # Monday, day after holiday (Friday)\n22 Apr · NQ · long · W · +0.67R # 23 Apr · NQ · short · W · +1.33R # 10 am data high sweep\n24 Apr · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # Swept previous day high but a valid loss\n28 Apr · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # there was no setup long and the short was correct\n29 Apr · NQ · long · W · +0.50R # 30 Apr · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # ","date":"30 April 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-04/","section":"Trading","summary":"19 trades logged in April 2025.","title":"April 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 10 NQ short W +1.33 view 12 NQ short W +0.67 view DATA HIGH not taken \u0026amp; SMT \u0026amp; 2 candles m5 13 NQ long W +1.50 view Use 40% of the range instead of 50% in entry 13 NQ long W +1.00 view Use 40% of the range instead of 50% in entry 17 NQ short W +1.50 view DATA HIGH DATA LOW setup 17 NQ short W +1.00 view DATA HIGH DATA LOW setup 18 NQ short W +0.67 view Day before CPI 20 NQ long W +0.67 view 24 NQ short L -1.00 view There was no HTF or Liquidity context 25 NQ short L -1.33 view Traded in news time, SL widened due to spread 26 NQ long L -1.00 view Perfect loss ES took asia high already 27 NQ long W +1.50 view Entry should be either cisd or 40% 27 NQ long W +2.00 view Entry should be either cisd or 40% 28 NQ short W +1.33 view 31 NQ long W +0.67 view 10 Mar · NQ · short · W · +1.33R # 12 Mar · NQ · short · W · +0.67R # DATA HIGH not taken \u0026amp; SMT \u0026amp; 2 candles m5\n13 Mar · NQ · long · W · +1.50R # Use 40% of the range instead of 50% in entry\n13 Mar · NQ · long · W · +1.00R # Use 40% of the range instead of 50% in entry\n17 Mar · NQ · short · W · +1.50R # DATA HIGH DATA LOW setup\n17 Mar · NQ · short · W · +1.00R # DATA HIGH DATA LOW setup\n18 Mar · NQ · short · W · +0.67R # Day before CPI\n20 Mar · NQ · long · W · +0.67R # 24 Mar · NQ · short · L · -1.00R # There was no HTF or Liquidity context\n25 Mar · NQ · short · L · -1.33R # Traded in news time, SL widened due to spread\n26 Mar · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # Perfect loss ES took asia high already\n27 Mar · NQ · long · W · +1.50R # Entry should be either cisd or 40%\n27 Mar · NQ · long · W · +2.00R # Entry should be either cisd or 40%\n28 Mar · NQ · short · W · +1.33R # 31 Mar · NQ · long · W · +0.67R # ","date":"31 March 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-03/","section":"Trading","summary":"15 trades logged in March 2025.","title":"March 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 16 NQ L -1.00 old losses 16 Jan · NQ · L · -1.00R # old losses\n","date":"16 January 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2025-01/","section":"Trading","summary":"1 trades logged in January 2025.","title":"January 2025","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 3 NQ L -1.00 old losses 9 NQ L -1.00 old losses 12 NQ L -1.00 old losses 3 Dec · NQ · L · -1.00R # old losses\n9 Dec · NQ · L · -1.00R # old losses\n12 Dec · NQ · L · -1.00R # old losses\n","date":"12 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2024-12/","section":"Trading","summary":"3 trades logged in December 2024.","title":"December 2024","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 25 NQ L -1.00 old losses 29 NQ W +2.00 25 Nov · NQ · L · -1.00R # old losses\n29 Nov · NQ · W · +2.00R # ","date":"29 November 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2024-11/","section":"Trading","summary":"2 trades logged in November 2024.","title":"November 2024","type":"trading"},{"content":" Day Pair Dir Result R P\u0026amp;L Chart Notes 4 NQ long W +1.33 view 9 NQ long W +1.33 view 10 NQ long W +1.33 view day before cpi (only reversals) 11 NQ long L -1.00 view 17 NQ long W +1.33 view PWL reversal? 22 NQ short W +1.33 view 4 Jan · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # 9 Jan · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # 10 Jan · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # day before cpi (only reversals)\n11 Jan · NQ · long · L · -1.00R # 17 Jan · NQ · long · W · +1.33R # PWL reversal?\n22 Jan · NQ · short · W · +1.33R # ","date":"22 January 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/trading/2024-01/","section":"Trading","summary":"6 trades logged in January 2024.","title":"January 2024","type":"trading"},{"content":"I heard about prop firms in January. I did not take a trade on one until March.\nTwo months of not trading. That gap is the most useful thing in this series, and it was not patience. It was the first time the cost of being wrong was high enough to make me stop and think before acting.\nWhy the gap existed # A challenge fee is real money paid up front for the privilege of being measured. That changes the calculation in a way a demo account never does.\nOn a demo you can start now, be wrong, and start again this afternoon. There is no forcing function, so there is no preparation. Put a fee and a set of rules in front of the same person and the question becomes different: not what do I think the market will do, but do I have something I can repeat under a drawdown limit.\nI did not. So I spent two months getting one.\nWhat changed once it was funded # The rules do the teaching. A daily loss limit is a hard stop on the exact behaviour that had been quietly costing me since October: losing, wanting it back, and sizing up to get it. You cannot revenge trade under a 5% daily cap. The account closes before your feelings do.\nThat is what I had been unable to impose on myself for five months. The constraint was external, and it worked because it was external.\nOwn account Funded account a bad day can become a bad month the day ends when the limit says so position size is a decision position size is arithmetic no deadline, so no urgency a target and a window nobody checks the rules check, every day What it did not fix # It did not make me a better analyst. The entries in March were the entries in February.\nWhat it did was remove the worst version of me from the equation, and it turned out most of the gap between losing and not losing was sitting in that version. Not in the setups.\nThe Be-Do-Have framing is easy to dismiss as self-help language until you watch external rules produce the identity you could not produce on your own. The firm made me trade like a professional before I was one. The behaviour came first. The rest followed.\n","date":"1 March 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/21-first-funded-account/","section":"Posts","summary":"March 2023. Two months between hearing about prop firms and taking the first trade on one.","title":"First Funded Account","type":"posts"},{"content":"","date":"1 March 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/series/getting-funded/","section":"Series","summary":"","title":"Getting Funded","type":"series"},{"content":"January 2023. I heard about FTMO.\nUntil then I had been solving the wrong problem. I thought my constraint was capital: a small account means small positions, small positions mean small returns, so the plan was to grind the account up until the numbers were worth the effort. That plan takes years and one bad week undoes it.\nProp firms invert the constraint. You are not trying to grow capital. You are trying to prove you can be trusted with someone else\u0026rsquo;s.\nHow the model works # You pay a fee, trade a simulated account against a fixed set of rules, and if you hold to them you trade a funded account and keep most of the profit.\nFTMO\u0026rsquo;s two-step evaluation, as it stands today:\nRule Challenge Verification Profit target 10% 5% Max daily loss 5% 5% Max total loss 10% 10% Minimum trading days 4 4 Read that table again and notice what it is measuring. One number is about making money. Three are about not losing it.\nThe part that reframed everything # I had been treating risk management as the boring half of trading, the thing you do so you can keep doing the interesting half. The evaluation says the opposite. You can hit the profit target and still fail. You cannot breach the drawdown and pass on the strength of your entries.\nThe firm is not asking whether you can predict. It is asking whether you are consistent enough to be a known quantity. Those are different skills, and only one of them was what I had been practising since October.\nA challenge is a specification. Most people read it as an obstacle between them and the money. It is closer to a definition of the job.\nWhat I got wrong about it # I thought passing was the hard part.\nPassing is a deadline with a target, and a deadline makes you trade. Keeping a funded account has no target and no deadline, which removes the one thing that had been forcing discipline on me. I would learn that later, expensively.\n","date":"1 January 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/20-finding-prop-firms/","section":"Posts","summary":"January 2023. I heard about FTMO and realised the constraint I thought I had was the wrong one.","title":"Finding Prop Firms","type":"posts"},{"content":"","date":"20 October 2022","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/beginnings/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Beginnings","type":"tags"},{"content":"20 October 2022. That is the date on the account.\nI was an engineer. I had spent years learning that systems behave in ways you can reason about: you read the logs, you form a hypothesis, you test it, you fix the cause. I assumed markets were the same kind of problem. Harder, maybe, but the same shape.\nThat assumption cost me about fourteen months.\nWhat I thought the job was # I thought trading was prediction. Find the pattern, call the direction, get paid for being right. It is the obvious reading, and it is wrong in a way that is hard to see from the outside.\nThe market is not a system you debug. It has no source code and no stack trace. The same setup that paid yesterday loses today, and no amount of reading the logs tells you which one you are in. An engineer\u0026rsquo;s instinct is to find the bug. There is no bug.\nWhat actually determines the outcome # Two traders can take the identical entry and end the year in opposite places. The difference is not the entry.\nWhat I focused on What actually moved the number finding the right setup how much I lost when wrong being right more often whether the winners were bigger than the losers more indicators, more confluence taking the same trade the same way every time the trade the thousand trades I would not have believed that table in October 2022. I had to pay for it.\nWhy this is post one # Because the date matters more than the details. Everything I have written since about discipline, delayed gratification and thinking in probabilities came out of this period. Not from reading about them. From being on the wrong side of each one with money attached.\nThe useful part of a beginning is not what you did. It is what you believed, so you can watch it break.\n","date":"20 October 2022","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/19-the-day-i-started-trading/","section":"Posts","summary":"20 October 2022. The day I opened an account, and the year of being wrong that followed.","title":"The Day I Started Trading","type":"posts"},{"content":" Interests # New experiences and exploring the world and the unknown Financial, location and time freedom. Generational wealth, healthy body, long-term relationships and the freedom of choice. Continuous learning and leveling by reading and taking action. Education # National Engineering Diploma in Computer Science - ESPRIT: Private School of Engineering and Technology (2024) National Diploma of Applied License in Embedded Systems - ISI: Higher Institute of Computer Science (2020) Experience # Site Reliability Engineer \u0026amp; IT Consultant Aug 2026 - Present Full-time Recovered a production ingress outage onto a new OVH Octavia load balancer, restoring all 134 hostnames with zero Ingress changes and keeping git and cluster state in sync. Migrated production log shipping from end-of-life Promtail to Grafana Alloy and fixed Loki persistence, preventing volume loss on scale-down and eliminating a silent log-drop window on every restart. Restructured the Envoy Gateway into a base-plus-overlay layout admitting all namespaces, unblocking the Gateway API rollout across both clusters. Propfirm Trader Oct 2022 - Present Self-employed Managing multiple funded accounts from multiple modern prop firms. 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